"Do you concur?" Yes, Jocke, I haven't tired of it yet. Maybe I'll wait til next week or the week after next when people have watched Catch Me If You Can, that is, if they will. The hundred bucks was worth it. But what's hundred bucks? I have Jocke for company over the week end. It's like God whispering, yes Jade, you still have your old friends. I hope I didn't get her tired from hearing my angst over Sumo. Geez...I'm still bitter. I don't wanna get bitter, I don't wanna turn cruel, I don't wanna get old before I have to...Newayz...

Got hold of a romance novel...c/o of Jocke again. It has been a while. Shouldn't have. As I was telling Pam, the downside of reading one is that you just get lonely after, that is, if you're single like me with a sense of spinsterousness(forgive my newly coined term). They're just so filled with sexuality and the idea of how your love life should be, and when you finish you find yourself close to, if not completely miserable for not having that man who could sweep you off your feet, only a cold bed and a routine, boring everyday, unspiced love life...absent love life. It leaves me wishing how we could have gone on, or maybe fantasizing about the new guy, us picking up where I and the pseudo-ex left off. And the resolution about staying chaste in body and mind? It just evaporated. What am I saying? I'm rambling already...sorry. I'm just deprived right now and I miss the things we used to do....just the things we used to do, not him. And I just wish I could have this guy, just to snuggle with (I'm tired of fighting the feeling already, so I'll just continue this bugging infatuation on him and all the wishful thinking). That's all.