Correlates is still ongoing and here I am skipping class. What's the use? I'm not listening anyway. A lot of them can't stay a bit longer either. I really just can't wait for this week to be over. The content of my prayers this week has been "Lord, help me make it through this day, this week alright". I must have been anticipating about something going awfully wrong. Fortunately, my prayers have been answered. I did all my homeworks, I managed my time nicely, etc, etc. Oh, I did miss that physio test yesterday, and for a while my little head spinned, good thing it's just an evaluation, or so they say. Oh, and what Marvin did, that was alright (the only time I'll be mortified is when he finds out and decides to steer clear). So actually that came in just the right time, just when I needed a little humor...some cosmic force's humor huh? (Hi Marvs! Are you reading this? You asked to be quoted, and now you're here, I just have to include this one =D ). I was going nuts in my little room and that mischief just had to make me smile...not that i'm so pleased, and not that I posted it all there to get some attention. It was just funny...maybe it's nice that someone I know knows about my sentiments (okay, I have to admit, my first reaction was anoh no, plus I didn't think it was Marvin, so add some little alarming bells to that). Yes, it's some soul baring, i've been pretty honest about the stuff, but as they say no man an island. Somehow, someone's has gonna see thru, someone's gonna find out. Ok, so it was to my own device. I just have to go let it out. I don't look so depressed in school...if only they know how i'm driving myself crazy whenever I'm alone. Speaking of crazy...I think I have to see a shrink. Okay, maybe I'm just over-acting, but I'm killing myself here. Maybe it's also OA when I say I'm depressed, but one thing that's for sure is I'm on a low. Is there such a thing as a natural low? Or should I be lining up for a Prozac? What's happening to me? Is this just a product of having my room all to myself? Or it has just been a while since I unloaded all my troubles? Some more and I'll turn into a schizo (wish I could just do what Nic says. This morning Nic said to stop and I was still so bothered...how could I not be, I could hear him breathing and all those wheezes...so close).

Anyways. I changed my mind, I'm going to play tomorrow. It scared me a bit to go against Science, but what the heck, it's just a game, and how many games are there to play? just two more. I may have screwed but I'm not as disposable as I think, they'd somehow be disappointed without me there. No really. Anyone would be disappointed when one doesn't show up coz she's got a cow. Besides, who's gonna shout "Go medicine...."? Fight!

Ok, I'm going now. I'm hungry again. There's still an untouched loaf in the fridge. I hope mom made another tiramisu. I hope there'd be something nice to eat when I get home. Can't wait to get home.