I've decided yesterday to get over my crush on him coz it's not as fun as it used to be anymore. I know it's not yet love but I get a wee bit upset when things don't go the way I wanted them too. I get frustrated just coz i can't make him really like me. We've been closer but it just doesn't satisfy me anymore. I'm getting obsessed again i think, and i don't want that. That's really sad. And it's supposed to be something light-hearted, inspiring. And it's not anymore. I'm just getting paranoid. He's in my mind constantly and sometimes, i just don't want that. Haaaayyyy..... And today....today, I just can't help looking at him and keeping my hands at my side and getting physically close. My resolution just evaporated. I should try harder. Damn.