divine intervention and intentions

something quite supernatural happened last Thurs. Yep, it was actually quite close to literally hear na angel's voice (yes...angel...that being with white wings). I dunno, suddenly I found myself just understanding Abby and not getting bitter and angry at her anymore. I wasn't reasoning with myself like I used to. some divine intervention? me thinks so. then guess what happened the next morning? she got me a slice of cake and a "belated happy birthday" which were quite nice. Maybe that's what happens when you let God handle things...whether it's your fault or not.

and for a change, and to set myself free, what I do now is tell myself to STOP whenever i start thinking negatively, when i start talking to myself about how bad Sumo is, how wrong she is, blahblahblah. you know how it is when you're angry at somebody that all you do is side withyourself and find fault in the other person. so whenever that happens i simply remind myself to stop. haha and hear myself say stop a hundred times. the devil must really be trying hard to set a foothold in my heart. unfortunately for him, i am now more conscious of my thoughts and where it is going.

abby's dad came up the apartment last night. asked me why i was leaving, why i had to when Sumo & I are friends (sorry sir, not anymore) and so, we could work our differences out. i just kept quiet and smiled that sorry smile. too bad...maybe sometimes, as a song goes, compromise is wrong. STOP